Not Done Much with This

I thought I would do more with this blog, but so much has happened since I started it. Job and personal, seem to get in the way of what I want to do. I am also hopelessly addicted to twitter, and somewhat to Facebook.
 Since I last posted anything, my love of my life, my 14 year old dachshund , Zoe passed away. It was more than traumatic, it was crushing. I still come home at night, thinking I'll see her standing there waiting for me. Even though it's been over a month, I still tear up when I think of her. She was a great dog, a great pal. I could not have asked for more in a companion. She is sorely missed.
 I did get another dog, who has been nick named "demon dog". Her name is Penny, but it might as well be "tornado, devastation, petulance, plague, hurricane,", well you get the idea. She has also made me laugh more than I have in a long time. Zoe was quiet and sure, Penny is in your face, " play with me, what ya bring, Dad, is that a new toy for me?"  I am sure Zoe would never approve, but eventually she would love her too.
 My girls new and old.

A Big Loss of a Little Dog

Been a hard couple of weeks. Most of it due to work. Stressful, so all I've wanted to do is just chill when I get home.
 Last week unexpectedly my dog of 14 years dies due to cancer. She showed no signs of being ill and was gone by Friday afternoon. It may sound like I am being a big baby, but I cried and cried and cried till I thought there was nothing left, then I cried some more. I didn't know she was that sick, she never acted like anything was amiss. I am doomed to wonder that if I had known, could I have saved her. I'll never know the answer, she couldn't set me down. tell me there was a problem.
 Zoe was the best dog I ever had. We had been through much. The death of my father, death of my mother, a move across country. Through all that she remained my closest companion, the rock that anchored me. It is a week today that I lost her, a rainy sad day. I miss her with all my heart and soul. Moving on has been the most a difficult thing. I still look for her when I come in the door. The mind knows what the heart won't accept.
 Her she is in the last months of her life.
 I love you little girl and will always love you.

Let us all hope and pray that SCOTUS strikes down DOMA and Prop 8. It's time we stopped being stupid children and let people love whom ever they wish to. Life is too short to desire to hurt any one, any group.

Baltimore Pride June 16, 2013

Made it to Baltimore Pride, although it looked like it was not going to happen. Friend's car died 8 miles outside of Frederick, Md. After finally getting a tow, was able to rent a car. We decide even though it was late, we would go. It was a great albeit short time. I missed the 30 weddings that were to be held. As you may know, same sex marriage is legal in Maryland.This was my  fourth time to go.  Hope to make it to Capitol Pride next year.
  A  few pictures of the fun and mayhem .

No Future

22 years ago the love of my life came back from Desert Storm, left me these and walked out of my life. Still think about him, always wondering what his life has been. Does he ever think of me? Will fate ever bring us together again? Forever unanswered question, why?

Revealing

Today I revealed a piece of myself to a firend. I was so scared I couldn't breathe. It's hard to reach down and bring to the surface somethings you keep hidden about yourself. Any time I think I want to tell someone, I stop. What if it changes everything? What if your warts are not accepted by them, or tolerated by them. I'm not talking serial killer. Just those secrets that you keep hidden for fear of ridicule, or being ostracized. It's so hard to find anyone who is willing to accept you, just as you are bad breath, warts, stupid laugh or what ever.  I like who I have become through a lot of trial and error. It doesn't mean others will. So, you reveal some, hope they don't run and go on.

What I wish

I wish for a world with no labels. No color, no sexual preference, no age, no language, only human. Just you, me,  and human.